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August 10, 2011

Im speechless & don’t know what to write anymore Cu . Everyday I’m hoping that school can come hurry so that I can go to school . So that I can forget about you . hmm . ngay nao cung thay kho chhieu , ngay nao cung thay met trong nguoi , ngay nao cung thay dau tim . Uoc gi Cu dung co di , uoc gi Cu con song tren doi nay … nhung do chi la mot dieu uoc kg thanh su that .. mot dieu uoc ma suuot doi nay cung kg co the say ra .. ahhhhhhhhh . Duong muon la len lon mot cai .. Di den cho nao do … trong nha nay ngop wa . D muon di ra ngoai duong choi kg muon o trong nha nua ….. Chan doi wa . kg biet phai lam gi nua .. song lam chi ma thay met moi wa .. I’m scare to said i m y becuz I will have a nightmare after saying it  . I don’t want to think about you to , because after that what I feel is hurtingg inside my heart. I wish  I was just a kid . I wish I didn’t met you . I wish I stay as a kid forever. Because age comes with pain. It comes with heartbreak , drama and lost relationships. Age means having to go through the sorrow of someone you never thought would leave you, (die) . Therefore I don’t want to grow up. I want to  be a kid . ahh , the movie I watch yesterday the girl ask the guy What Does I Love You mean and the guys reply ” I love you means that I accept you for the person you are, and that I do not wish to change you into someone else. It means that I do not expect you to be perfect. It means that I will love you and stand by you even through the worst of times. It means when you’re in a bad mood I won’t leave you and try to make you better. It means loving you through all your emotions not just when you’re fun to be with. It means that I could know your deepest secrets and not judge you for them. It means that I care enough to fight for what we have and that I love you enough not to let go. It means through all our fights, we will find a way to resolve it, and learn from it.” After hearing that D moi bietminh kg phai la mot nguoi ban gai tot. I remember what I do to you & act toward you . I was a bossy & mean person . I’m not a nice person . I wish if time can go back I will love you with everything i had. You are my first love and I learn a lot from it. “First love,” It’s a big lesson that everyone should learn from. You’ll look back and see how you shouldn’t have done this and that, but that’s a lesson for the next person you go out with. You will know what to do and what not to do. You’ll get over that person. It might take weeks, months, or even years, but I’ll get over you. A stranger will come out of no where and pick me up my feet . I might have to fall a couple of times before I meet that perfect someone, but I’ll some how meet “the one.”  

August 10, 2011

 

Dear future love, If I ever find you please know that I promise to cherish every single moment we spend together because every moment with you is special to me. The moment you fell in love me I was so happy, So I promise to never neglect you or the love you show towards me and as cliche’ as it sounds know that when I say “I love you”, Know that I mean it and love you with every fiber of my being and all my heart darling. My commitment to our relationship means the world to me so know that as long as I’m with you I will be faithful and honest at all times. Please let’s make a pact that our love is stronger then any argument that may occur in this relationship because to lose you would be like losing a piece of my heart and I would be devastated if I lost you. My love for you means more then any argument so please let’s just sit down and work things out peacefully so we can build a stronger love between us. Well, Just know that no matter what I’m there for you, I don’t care what time it is or what I’m doing and I love you very much sweet heart. Whether you’re near or far I hope one day you come into my life and let me be the one for you, Thank you love.

L O V E ?

August 9, 2011

” by – trung phan “

what is love and  what love really means?

do you know what love means?

love is a universal feeling and something almost everyone strives for, whether in family or from a partner.

  • what love really means?

from ancient years this is only question which has not been given a definite answer that satisfies every single human being. it is hard to derive one single answer that will please all minds. various individual answers have been given to the question ‘what love really means?’ it differs from person to person and their unique perspective of love in general. there are many kinds of love; it is also inherent in all human beings. the diversity of cultures is what makes it hard to establish a universal definition for love.

logic states that everything in this world has a cause and an effect. true love is the only feeling which is its own cause and its own effect; illogical and yet above all logical explanations.

love differs from heart to heart; love can be good and can be bad. to love and be loved is the perfect ingredients to happiness but to love and not be loved will be a darkness in your soul. being in love is like a drop of water after years of draught, it eases your soul’s agonies of life. being in love is a feeling not all humans will experience. so if you have it cherish. just love it. to describe love is very difficult, for the same reason that words cannot fully describe the flavor of an orange. you have to taste the fruit to know its flavor.

true love has a foundation of integrity, respect, faith and trust. love is the force that brings about unity and harmony. love seeks no cause beyond itself and no fruit; it is its own fruit, its own enjoyment. i love because i love; i love in order that i may love.

love is comforting someone in need of love and having them know that somebody cares.

love is looking past imperfections in your partner and seeing the beautiful person inside. true love seeks the happiness and well being of your partner.

love must be experienced; its meaning is infinite and can never be totally defined. there is no fear in love, but perfect love casts out fear.

love has never been defined since man began, so we have to use our own hearts and minds to decide. love itself is a universal experience. yet, every individual occurrence – while perhaps bound by a common thread – seems absolutely unique. love is what love is! to everyone it expresses itself differently.

LET ME TELL YOU A STORY.. (A GLIMPSE OF MY LIFE)

August 9, 2011

 By : Trung Phan

My mother used to ask me which body part is the most important. Through the years I would take a guess at what I thought was the correct answer.

When I was younger, I thought sound was very important to us as humans, so I said, “My ears, Mommy.”

She said, “No. Many people are deaf but they get along fine. Keep thinking about it and I will ask you again soon.”

Several years passed before she asked me again. Since making my first attempt, I had contemplated for the correct answer.

So this time I told her, “Mommy, sight is very important to everybody so it must be our eyes.”

She looked at me and told me, “You are learning fast but the answer is not correct because there are many people who are blind.”

Stumped again, I continued my quest for knowledge and over the years, Mother asked me a couple more times and her answer was always, “No. But you are getting smarter every year, my child.”

Then one year, my grandfather died. Everybody was hurt. Everybody was crying. Even my father cried. I remember that especially well because it was only the second time I saw him cry.

My Mom looked at me when it was our turn to say our final good-bye to my Grandfather.

She asked me, “Do you know the most important body part yet, my dear?”

I was shocked when she asked me the question then. I always thought this was a game between her and me.

She saw the confusion on my face and told me, “This question is very important. It shows that you have really lived in your life. For every body part you guessed in the past, I have told you were wrong and I have given you an example why. But today is the day you need to learn this important lesson.”

She looked down at me as only a mother can. I saw her eyes well up with tears.

She said, “My dear, the most important body part is your shoulder.”

I asked, “Is it because it holds up my head?”

She replied, “No, it is because it can hold the head of a friend or a loved one when they cry. Everybody needs a shoulder to cry on sometime in life, my dear. I only hope that you have enough love and friends so that you will always have a shoulder to cry on when you need it.”

Then and there I knew the most important body part is not a selfish one. It is sympathetic to the pain of others.

People will forget what you said. 

People will forget what you did.

But people will Never forget how you made them feel.

August 9, 2011

 I want to go somewhere CU . I don’t want to stay home . Ahhhhhhhhh . I didn’t even know whether if today is tuesday or wednesday … ! i’m tired of everything .. I hate you for leaving so soon . I want someone to come into my life & help me to overcome this nightmare & help me to stop thinking about you. My heart hurt a lot .. I keep thinking about you … I can’t get my head off . Only when i’m on the phone with someone else is when I forget about you . I don’t want to live a life like this . Im really tired . I’m tired of telling people that I’m fine .. ahhhhhh . . Last night I want to scream ahh out loud . School please come by faster … I want to go to school . I want to forget everything . Everyday is a boring day . Every night is a scary night . Every hours you pop in my head . I want to see somebody . I want somebody to talk to me . I need to go somewhere . No one really know how I feel . I start to don’t know what to write anymore . I don’t know what going on in my life . It seem like I lost the appetite to do everything . I don’t have the mood to do anything . Maybe tonight I will ask AnhLam to unlock the phone for me so I can use my old number. How are you doing up there Cu ? I don’t know when will Dan take me to the cemetery to see you . I will buy you some beautiful flower & the OngCuBaCu to put next to your grave . Since you gone I dream about you two day straight .. Friday & Saturday both days on your funeral . One is a scary dream & one is a normal dream .. I hope you already dau thai or being an angel . I hope you can hear my prayer where ever you at . I hope the prayer will help you . I love you ….. I need you more than anyone else on this entire planet could possibly ever need you. I need you to take care of me, to put up with me, and most of all I need you to love me, cause I LOVE YOU.

L o v e l y people <3

August 9, 2011

I remember when you didn’t call me I sent you those message & those are the last message I sent to you. . .

 This is all the message that my friends write when you’re gone Cu ; )

ngay thang nam

August 9, 2011

  I didn’t think about you much today .. I didn’t want to count how many days you have gone . This morning while  sitting on the table  in the kitchen . My dad tell me to delete the picture I have of you in the desktop & forget about you. He said that you are in a different place & i’m on a different place so I should forget you. I love you a lot , but I will keep it in my heart. I can’t think about you anymore & I really need to forget you for now. I don’t want  to feel hurt anymore. When you pop in my head & I see you , I feel really hurt . I’m tired of love Cu , I don’t know what it mean anymore.  What is love ? Why do people fall in love for ? I don’t want to love  anybody or anybody to love me  . Is that  a stupid thing ? I feel that love is tiresome. It hard to find a nice person. My family’s tell me that I was a lucky little girl since I grow up till now . I was born inside of a red bag & the year i born was the most luckiest year … I use to thought that I was lucky too , but when you disappear that is when I figure out that my life is no longer lucky anymore. I was unlucky that why I lost a person like you. The only person I want to talk to now is Tam . She can understand how I feel & she is a nice person . But she have to live her life too , so she can’t talk to me 24/7 but I’m happy that she is there for me most of the time Cu . I’m happy to have nice friends around me.  I will start smile , feeling happy & be the old me. A lot of people said they don’t like seeing me like this . They said they want to see the talkative Duong , the Duong who always talking & singing .. I didn’t go anywhere much since you’re gone . I went to your house , the funeral & to the mall yesterday with my dad .. It seem like my life is upside down since you’re gone , but I will try to forget you .. I will keep you in my  forever , but in my mind I will erase you in it .. I’m just going to start thinking only happy thoughts from now on.  There is no use to being sad.  Smile and the world smiles back.  Frown and the world turns their back on you.

"Sometimes you just need to be alone. Sometimes not even your best friend needs to know. Sometimes you need to put up the walls so you
 can examine yourself in the peace and quiet. Sometimes the loud sounds need to fade away, leaving only the silence and you; that's it."